TGIF!!!!

It's Friday and I'm about to leave work... I thought I should update about the second hospital tour!

We went on a tour of another hospital and It was AMAZING!!!! I now know where I'm delivering! All the rooms are private, there is a shower/bath in each room, and the nurses that I met were completely awesome... and the even better news! I can try to have a VBAC! They encourage them!!!! :) I'm so happy at this moment! I may even get a better doctor, I'm just waiting to hear from the HR Manager at my company... They have full coverage insurance and the doctor I want accepts the insurance offered by my company, instead of D's Insurance... I'm just still praying that I can be covered through my company, if not I'm going to have to pay 250.00 out of pocket for 3 months of coverage, but I'm cool with that!!!! I can't believe how good life is going right now... I'm actually a little nervous about how good things are right now... Is it wrong that I'm not thoroughly enjoing myself because I think something is going to go wrong... God I pray that it doesn't... :-)

Have a good weekend everyone!!!
Lori

Funny Story Tuesday...

Has been extremely busy... I wanted to post yesterday but couldn't... I was swamped here at the office and I'll be even more swamped the rest of the week... I've wanted to write about our first hospital tour... I'll start the story even though I may not have the time to finish...

D and I went to TGH on Sunday after church to go on the tour... We've been in this particular hospital before, just not the labor and delivery part... So we went in with an open mind even though the parts where we'd been we didn't like, but we were in this is where peoples miracles are born so this has to be great... NOPE! We were wrong in every sense of the word... The rooms were dated... so was some of the equipment... the NICU was the only thing that was nice... I mean it's liked we stepped into the 70's version of Grey's Anatomy... I was completely taken aback by this... but we continued on the tour anyway because we were there to learn about the hospital and maybe we'd be pleasantly surprised by the end of the tour...

So... Off we go... touring and looking at the labor, delivery, and postpartum room when... the nurse giving the tour drops a huge bomb... There is only one shower on the floor... which you have to share with everyone... I was like UM... HELL NO! I'm a huge germ freak already so the thought of sharing a shower with other women who've just given birth and we all know the after math of birthing a baby is nasty as hell... but to our consolation the nurse told us that they cleaned the shower after a person used it... I was like Yeah Right... you have someone standing at the door with a scrubber for every time a person uses the bathroom... I don't think so... plus I've been in the restrooms in the hospital and I'll be damned if every time I went in one it needed to be cleaned... Badly...

So... after this experience... and what we've learned about the hospital... it's a no go... fo sho... haha...

We tour another hospital tomorrow, and another one again on Thursday... I sure hope one of those are decent... because I'll drive out of town if I have to... lol

Ciao!

What Does "Good" Look Like?

"As for me, it is good to be near God. I have made the Sovereign Lord my refuge; I will tell of all your deeds" (Psalm 73:28).


A colorful scarf encircled her bald head while her rail thin body laboriously, yet steadily, walked from the medical center parking garage to the oncologist's office. Finally sinking into a waiting room chair, she turned to me with a bright smile on her pale face: "Isn't God GOOD?!"
Cancer that been detected in her breast while her third child was only a few months old had spread inexorably to lymph nodes, bones and was now, less than two years later, slithering into the recesses of her brain. She and her husband had recently chosen to stop treatment since medical experts agreed that nothing more could be done to halt the disease.


"Isn't God good"?? What kind of statement is that when Amy was already videotaping farewell messages to her three children? Is this denial in its most basic, and cruel, form? What "good" could there be when this writer, counselor, brilliant intellect, wife, mother would soon be buried and turned to dust?
Through good times and bad, times when it was easy to trust in the goodness of God and other times when he seemed absent, Amy had made it a practice to believe that she lived in the refuge of a good God.


Amy lived only a few weeks after that morning when I accompanied her to the doctor's office, but they were weeks of quiet joy as her husband, children, friends and family members gathered daily in her bedroom. Amy's deep desire was to be a partner in ministry with her husband and see her children grow up. Instead she was showing them how to live?and die?in the presence of a good God.


~Thank You, Lord, for the privilege of knowing Amy and for her decisions to be a vessel through which the goodness of God could be seen.


Questions:
Describe how this story affected you upon reading it. What was the characteristic that impressed you the most about Beth? How do you suppose she became the person that she was during this time of great suffering knowing that she was near death?

It's Friday!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Can you tell I'm happy about this? Friday is a good day, the end of the work week and beginning of the weekend... We don't have much planned this weekend... My MIL is demanding to go see the model of our house, so we're going to have lunch with her, her hubby, D and myself. Then we'll venture off to the model home... I don't mind... I love going to see the model... I want to move into it... lol Is that bad?

On a more sadder note, A family friend passed away yesterday, He was my Sister in Law, Father in Law, but he was truly a wonderful man and will be terribly missed by us all. He had such a light demeanor and could make anyone happy with his personality. I'm a pretty shy person at times and he even made me smile and laugh... He left behind his wife and sons... but I pray that they find the peace that surpasses all understanding during this time of grief. Please be in prayer for them. Thank you!

I wish everyone a happy and safe weekend and I'll post more later!
Lori T.

Our Home...

I guess I can start documenting the process now... even though we don't break ground until next month... I'm just happy it's happening...

Let's see... where to begin, It's in a gated community, in Florida... We have a wonderful lot that backs up to a nature conservation, We're the only ones who've bought this floor plan so far, reason being is because there isn't a model in the neighborhood... we had to drive to another neighborhood a good bit away to see it... and that is where we fell in love.

I have so much more to write, but as of right now I have to get some stuff finished here at the office so I can leave here! lol

Lori

Maternity Pictures...

These are some pictures from my maternity session... she took a lot more, but these are just a few that we really liked a lot.

It's Monday!

Good Morning Yall!

It's Monday and I'm at the office, today has started off pretty busy but I don't mind at all... My boss was out of town all last week and I was bored out of my mind... I don't ever think I've said this but I'm so happy my boss is back and I'm glad he enjoyed himself in San Diego...

I'm still walking on cloud nine from this weekend, I truly can't believe that we bought a house... I don't think I'll truly grasp it until they break ground in the next month or two... I am so tired of renting... I mean, we rent a beautiful house on a lake, but the realtors and the neighborhood are so anal... It's been a stressful year living there and I'm glad that it'll all be over in 6 months...

Well, I hope this week is good for everyone, and I'm sure I'll write another blog sometime today... but until then!

Ciao

Throwback Sunday!

This Picture is from June 25th, 2005, about about 12 days before D and I got married... We were at the church for his sister's wedding... He walked her down the aisle... He looked hot here... lol

Anyway, On to other news... I'm doing good, baby is doing good, J is doing good, Family is doing good... and... WE BOUGHT A HOUSE!!!!!!! Which is good! :-)

It's in a gated community which and we have no backyard neighbors... the only thing is we have to wait until it's finished being built... Which is going to be around March of next year... I can't wait... We're homeowners again!!!! What a wonderful feeling... especially with everything going on with our families, it's good to have something great happen in the midst of chaos...

I'm praying this week goes smoothly and that everyone has had a great of a weekend as I have!

Me

TGIF!

Hey Everyone! Thank Goodness It's Friday! I've had a hellava week! Above is the belly... In which my little boy is housed until November... EARLY November... lol I can't wait to meet him and kiss his little feet that have been kicking my ribs nonstop since my 4th month... lol

In other news... My mom had a heart attack last night... It was mild, but it was a heart attack nontheless... It frightened me and made me angry that I found out she's not going to the doctor or taking care of herself like she should... I'm getting this out here before I call her as not to have a very pregnant and hormonal freak out on her... that would include some yelling... It really scares me to know that my mom isn't invincible... The woman who can do anything... but yet at this very moment she seems so fragile... Wow...

*Disclaimer... Yes I know it is not ok to yell at your mom under any circumstance... but there are some special instances... like this one*

Ok... Moving on... Guess What... The Vice President Of The United States is going to be in the building right across from mine in about an hour... I can literally throw a stone and hit the building he's going to be in... I'm hoping to get a peek at him... to see what all the fuss is about... Another perk to working on base... lol Nah, but really, I'm just going to walk to my husbands office and hang out until all the hoopla is over... then we can go home... and I can get ready for my maternity pictures tomorrow... I can't wait! Well, I hope everyone has a wonderful Friday!!!

Peace, Love, and HairGrease,

Lori

To VBAC or Not To VBAC, That Is The Question....

I've been pondering this for the last 8 months and to this day I'm still terrified of the answer... Do I attempt a natural birth for my son, or do I go and lay on the cold operation table and allow the doctors to cut him out of my body oh so unnaturally? It really is a tough decision... I think that babies should be allowed to come into this world however they chose, but at the same time I'm torn with what may happen if I do have him naturally... Will my uterus rupture? Will my baby die? Will I die? What then? My husband is out of a wife and a son? Left to raise our daughter on his on? These are the questions that are running through my mind constantly and it sucks...

There are pros and cons to both options of birthing him... I just want him to be healthy and for me to be healthy afterwards... That's all... but, you never know... what could happen... I guess I'll go ponder some more and let you know what I decide later...

A Very Confused,
Lori

Oprah Says...

If a man wants you, nothing can keep him away. If he doesn't want you,nothing can make him stay.

Stop making excuses for a man and his behavior. Allow your intuition(or spirit) to save you from heartache.

Stop trying to change yourself for a relationship that's not meant tobe.

Slower is better.

Never live your life for a man before you find what makes you truly happy.

If a relationship ends because the man was not treating you as youdeserve then heck no, you can't "be friends". A friend wouldn't mistreat afriend. Don't settle.

If you feel like he is stringing you along, then heprobably is.Don't stay because you think "it will get better." You'll be mad at yourself a year later for staying when things are not better.

The only person you can control in a relationship is you.

Avoid men who've got a bunch of children by a bunch of different women.He didn't marry them when he got them pregnant, why would he treat you any differently?

Always have your own set of friends separate from his.

Maintain boundaries in how a guy treats you. If something bothers you, speak up. Never let a man know everything. He will use it against you later.

You cannot change a man's behavior. Change comes from within.

Don't EVER make him feel he is more important than you are...even if hehas more education or in a better job.

Do not make him into a quasi-god. He is a man, nothing more, nothing less.

Never let a man define who you are.

Never borrow someone else's man.If he cheated with her, he'll cheat on you.

A man will only treat you the way you ALLOW him to treat you.

All men are NOT dogs.

You should not be the one doing all the ending...compromise is a two way street.

You need time to heal between relationships...there is nothing cute about baggage...Deal with your issues before pursuing a new relationship.
You should never look for someone to COMPLETE you... a relationship consists of two WHOLE individuals... look for someone complimentary...not supplementary.
Dating is fun...even if he doesn't turn out to be Mr. Right.

Make him miss you sometimes... when a man always knows where you are and you're always readily available to him - he takes it for granted.

Never move into his mother's house.

Never co-sign for a man.

Don't fully commit to a man who doesn't give you everything that you need.

TGIF!!!!!!

It's Friday Yallllllllllllll!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I couldn't be more happy about it! And... I get to leave work early!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! Can you tell I'm a little excited? D and I just got back from lunch, we went to this restaurant that I've been dying to try called Monstah Lobstah, the who owns it is from Maine and has lobsters flown in daily... I was in heaven! I found out something even cooler about the owner, he was on the 5th season of Ultimate Fighter! I thought that was pretty neat since D and I are into the UFC... What a great way to start a weekend huh? But wait... There's More!

Guess WHAT!!! WE FOUND FRIENDS!!!!! lol They aren't us couples, but they are couples nontheless, and it's been great... I'm stoked... It's been so good to finally have girls to talk to and shop with and do girl stuff!!! lol... I think I missed that part more than I realized... and D has guy friends!!! That don't live 6 hours away! That he can hang out with and do guy things! It's been great! :-)

Well... besides that tonight, tomorrow we're painting J's room, and I'm ordering her new bed today, as well as the letters for both J and A's walls... I can't wait until I'm done... lol... It's been fun... but it's also been a lot of work doing 2 rooms at once...

We went to look at a house yesterday and were greatly disappointed... It was AWFUL... I mean a Hot Mess... I was like NO WAY... What was really funny was that the realtor was oblivious to us not liking the house... or at least pretened to be... lol She was a mess too... but that's life... I'm beginning to not want to buy a house here and wait until we go overseas and come back... We'll see... I'm sure I'll change my mind tomorrow...

I hope everyone has a wonderful and safe weekend!

Lori T.

WooHoo!!!

The day is almost over and potty mouth has been out of the office for the rest of the day! Awesome right? I just thought I'd blog about how great it's been to have the office to myself!!! If only tomorrow could be just as good! lol

More Later,
Lori

Wednesday

Good Morning,

I'm here at my office, starting my day the way I normally do and guess what... I have a guy in the other room cursing madly at the copier... Now... normally this would bother me, but I've grown so used to it that I'm just like Oh happy day... another morning of cursing... I'm beginning to think that my son's first statement out of the womb is going to be Fuck... no crying or anything... just Fuck. lol Now, I'm not saying swearing is a bad thing, everyone swears from time to time, but when every other word out of your mouth is a curse word then... I have a problem...

Anyway... That's my rant of the day and I'm sure I'll have more... but for now, let me go and enjoy my ear pollution of the day.

Lori

Soooo.....

Today is my Monday and it's been ok so far... Work has been busy which I don't mind because that means the day is going by faster... I just had lunch with D and that was a good time... One of the perks to working on base! I can't believe that in just 9 weeks I'm going to be the mom of a little boy... I think it's really finally setting in... lol

I'm going to the gym this afternoon to work out for a bit, then I plan on relaxing the rest of the day... Happy Monday Everyone! :-) Or shall I say... Happy Tuesday! lol

Lori