We've made a selection

Unfortunately, it isn't you.

Yep. I heard those words yesterday.

Not exactly a great start to the week.

I didn't get the job I really truly wanted

but you know what?

My friend did!

And, believe or not 

I am stoked for her.

She's going to do great!

Am I bummed? 

I was.

I came home 

and

had a 3-year old's 

type of tantrum. 

I yelled at God. I screamed why?

I cried. I screamed. And I cried some more. 

I'm not ashamed to admit it. 

Luckily that didn't last too terribly long. 

Ten minutes at best.

I'm just glad I was home alone; with no one to witness 

my shananigans. 

Looking back at the situation of screaming & crying

is actually quite comical.

God was probably laughing the whole entire time... 

because he already knew what was coming afterwards.

You know what I did after that?

I picked myself up

&

I started looking for 

other positions. 

I thanked God for all the things that I have in life already.

For all the blessings I've received already.

And for the ones that are coming.

I apologized too.

I should not have 

behaved in such a manner.

I like to believe that at my apology

He smiled.

He probably just shrugged.

He knows me.

He loves me.

I'm his child.

So, today after I finish typing this

I'm going to apply for another job.

I'm praying that though God has closed a door,

that He's opened a window

and

His grace

and 

His mercy

and 

blessings

will pour through. 

Have a wonderful week!