So, you took the day off?

Today was supposed to be The Athlete's swimming lesson.

Instead, the teacher forgot to tell us she was taking today off.

Oh well. 

Mr. Sergeant, The Ath, and I had fun anyway.

Hooray for lazy pool days. 

How handsome is he?

And only 3... I'm in some trouble. 

Memorial Day

‎"Their lives remind us that freedom is not bought cheaply. It has a cost; it imposes a burden. And just as they whom we commemorate were willing to sacrifice, so too must we -- in a less final, less heroic way -- be willing to give of ourselves." ~ Ronald Reagan, Memorial Day 1982

Let us not forget that freedom is not free.

Remember those who have given their lives and the ones still fight

so that we may have the lives we lead.

Memorial Day is not just another day off.

It's a day to remember. 

Never forget.

Thank you to all who serve and who have served 

our country. 

Daily Nugget from The Athlete

T.A. ~ Mama, can I have marshmallows? 

Me~ No. It's 8 am. Too early for marshmallows. (Yes I'm the mean mom)

T.A. ~ Mama, you sick?

Me~ Yes, mommy has a cold. 

T.A. Mama, marshmallows will make you feel better. Let's have marshmallows momma.

(Big Grin)

I just shake my head and laugh... Where does he come up with this stuff... 

and no... he still didn't get marshmallows. He's sulking on the couch right now shooting me the stank eye. 

LOL

Under the weather...

It's what I am...

So, sorry I've been a bad blogger,

but as I type this I am surrounded by 

34431615946 kleenex 

cold medicine

and my blankets

with 

my comfy green socks. 

I'm on my couch

trying to muster up the strength to 

make it back downstairs to my bedroom. 

It's a long walk y'all.

So, hopefully soon I'll have 

some stuff worth reading up here.

Until then AHHHH CHHHHHHOOOOOOOO!

xoxo,

A very sick....

Staycation Swap Swag

I participated in a Staycation Swap with my Girl 

ATLYankeeBelle

Here is the swag she sent me! 

How fun is all this?!

The girl hooked it up! 

I can only hope she likes the box I sent

as much as I liked hers!

Wordless Wednesday ~ Month of the Military Child

I know that 

last month 

was the month of 

the 

"Military Child"

We attended a festival on base 

and this 

picture was taken.

Just got it back yesterday and I wanted to share it with you.

Mr. Sergeant and His Babies

It's so rare to get a picture with all three of them full on cheesing like this!

The loves of my life.

I absolutely pink puffy heart this picture!

Tuesday's Tunes ~ India Arie

This week our

 Tuesday's Tunes

are from

Ms. India Arie.

I can remember the first time I heard her music.

I had to know who this was

whose lyrics captured what I was feeling

as almost we were thinking the same thing

at the very same time.

I fell in love with Ms. Arie

from the first note.

I hope you take the time to listen to her word and her music 

as I do or at least can appreciate some good music 

when you hear it.

Enjoy

Video

courtesy of IndiaArieVEVO via youtube.com

I Am Ready For Love

courtesy of IndiaArieVEVO via youtube.com

The Truth

courtesy of IndiaArieVEVO via youtube.com

Heart of the Matter

courtesy of canadianmaiden via youtube.com

Beautiful

courtesy of lies01 via youtube.com

Purify Me

courtesy of elibrown810 via youtube.com

Total Bummer

I had an awesome post that I wanted to share, but my laptop cord died on me. :-( anyone want to send me a new one? I promise the post will be with it! LOL

Guess Who

Had a "Good" day today?

This girl did!

Thank you Jesus

for good company

great amazing food

and 

the ability to laugh.

We're moving forward.

One step at a time.

Who's going to beat this funk. 

I am.

I am indeed.

:-)

CONGRATULATIONS TO MR. SERGEANT!!!!!!!

On his promotion to Master Sergeant!

We are so very proud of you!!!!

One Step Forward, Two Steps Back

I just want to go home.

I keep saying this to myself.

Although I have been trying to be happier.

I know this is a process

and 

I will not feel like screaming from 

the rooftops

how much I love this place

tomorrow

or today 

for that matter.

The days go by and

I feel like they are wasted.

Deep down inside I know they aren't.

I spend quality time with my son.

I clean, I cook, I read.

I don't do anything outside 

because 

well

it's too hot. 

Really

I feel empty.

Vacant.

Like my body is here.

I'm going through the motions.

But my soul is gone.

I have no feeling.

It's at night when all is quiet

that I feel everything.

The loneliness, the longing,

of what I'm longing for 

I can't be too sure. 

I think it's me.

I miss me.

I get upset.

Mr. Sergeant and I are suffering.

I love him.

I do.

He wants to help.

He doesn't know how.

I don't ask him to help.

I ask him to leave me alone.

I push him away.

The very last thing that 

I should be doing.

And here I am doing it.

I am.

During the day it's the Athlete and I

We tend to have fun just us.

But I feel like he's missing out.

He doesn't have friends.

The only interaction he has 

is 

during his swim lessons on Tuesdays.

This past Tuesday he screamed not to leave.

We stayed an extra hour past the class and 

he still screamed not to go.

He screamed he wanted to go back to FL.

That hurt. Really bad.

I want to go back to FL too.

We can't.

This is our life now.

Here in this place.

I'm not helping him adjust because I'm not adjusting.

I feel like I'm screwing everything up.

I feel like I'm failing as a mom

that brings me a pain that I can't even begin to describe.

He is here with me all day.

Him and I.

I and Him.

He has no friends.

Neither do I.

What do we do?

What do I do?

I've tried making friends with 

those spouses that have kids here.

My son and I

we're enlisted

We're not good enough.

I honestly don't care about them not liking me.

But to reject my son. 

My sweet boy.

With the kindest, biggest heart.

Who loves everyone

and 

just wants to be friends.

To play.

That's not right.

It makes me angry.

This has me very upset.

I'm crying now.

I don't understand what's happening.

What this is I'm going through.

I've never gone through this before...

I'm tough.

I've been through so many things.

Bad things.

And now here I am...

Breaking.

This... being here is breaking me...

The question is am I going to let it?

Am I strong enough to break-free of this breakage?

I'd like to think so... 

I just don't know how.

I don't know what to do...

I'm so sorry about posting this... 

I went back and forth about it...

I want to write happy posts...

I do...

More than anything I want to write a happy post right now.

About anything.

Unfortunately

I can't

and 

for that I'm sorry.

Please stick with me... 

I'm sure there is some happy in there somewhere...

 I've got to find it... and fast.

Wordless Wednesday ~ Grocery Shopping Fail

Mr. Sergeant and I

decided to 

venture to the NEX

and 

grocery shop.

We learned 

not to 

ever do that again.

We spent almost $130

on four bags of groceries

and I still have to get stuff 

from other grocery stores. 

:-/

Next time you buy ground beef 

be thankful it's not this per pound.

Yes... 

That says $7.79 for a pound of 

ground beef

Heaven forbid you need cherries...  :-/

$9 a pound?

I think I'll be sticking to 

shopping at the 

grocery stores 

in the local economy. 

Unless of course, 

there are no cherries or beef. 

lol

;-)

Tuesday's Tune ~ David Gray

Absolutely 

Love His Songs,

His Lyrics

His Style

Enjoy. :-)

This Years Love(my favorite)

courtesy of MizzTonia via youtube.com

Babylon

courtesy of TheRainbowTrain via youtube.com

Sail Away

courtesy of aoifedaly56 via youtube.com

Please Forgive Me

courtesy of murishmedias via youtube.com

Be Mine

(Mr. Sergeant's and mine's song)

courtesy of zlrebel75 via youtube.com

PS. Don't forget to link up. :-)

Little Yaya's

Military Monday ~ The Dream-Sheet

Hi There!

It's Monday again, 

and 

I thought I'd do a post about 

well.... Military.

Honestly, 

I don't know if this is 

all about military.

However,

I've been thinking about something lately.

Where are we going next?

I know there is never a sure fire way to 

pick where you end up.

It'd be nice, but that would be too much like right.

So...

You just go where they send you.

Which is fine somewhat. lol

I'm getting used to this place slowly.

I may or may not be x'ing 

the days off on a calender...

but that's neither

here nor there.

Today, Mr. Sergeant and I

updated his dream-sheet.

For my Non-Military 

peoples

a dream-sheet is what it sounds like.

A wish list of places to go.

I'm nervous about it.

Of course we picked Florida. 

(practically every base in FL) LOL

That's where we're the most happiest at in this world.

However, we picked a few other places

that are unknown to us both.

We've never visited,

no family or friends... 

It'd be like here.

Just us, 

the kids,

and 

our military life.

That's when I got scared. 

The unknown again?

I don't know if I can handle 

another unknown.

See previous posts... 

So for now, 

my fingers are crossed for Florida again.

But if one of the others are picked, 

I have y'all to help me get ready right?

:-D

I'm curious...

What do you think of the dream-sheet idea?

Where would you want to live?

Happy Monday and don't forget to stop over and do this!

It's a great blog hop, for military bloggers and those of you who love us. ;-) 

xoxoxo

Conversations with a three year old

This is a conversation between The Athlete and I

before nap-time today.

Me: Alright Beau; it's about that time

T.Athlete: What time is it Mum Mum (in his sweetest baby voice)

Me: It's nap-time Babe

T.Athlete: I can't take a nap today

Me: Why not?

T.Ath: Daddy said I not have too.

Me: He did, well let's call him.

T.Athlete: No Mum Mum. No call him. Daddy busy at werk righ now.

Me: How do you know?

T.Athlete: He told me. He is BUSY. NO CALL DADDY MUM MUM! Pweety Peas Mum Mum!

Me: Okay, I won't call Daddy, but you have to lay down now.

T.Athlete: Mum Mum, I can't take a nap now. I have to party.

(This convo has gotten intriguing)

Me: ?! Excuse me?

T.Athlete: I have to party Mum, like a rockster (Rock-star)

I'm a rockstar MumMum.

Me: Oh really. Who said that?

T.Athlete: Sissy, and Sissy said rocksters don't take naps they party.

Me: Boy, have a good nap. 

I'm off to call daddy and tell him we have rocksters 

and negotiating toddlers living in our home. I'm sure he'll be impressed.

So that's it ladies and gents. It's official. My son is a rockster. 

Life should only get more interesting from here. LOL 

In a state such as this....

I really want to blog,

Really I do.

I want to write about the

mundane things of 

my life here in Bahrain.

I want to write about

these

profound 

meanings of life 

that I am 

finding 

here.

But alas,

there are none such things 

going on.

As of late I have 

completely

and I mean

COMPLETELY

hated being here

with 

every

inch

of my being. 

There is nothing profound about that.

Each day I cry. I stress. I get angry.

I'm here, 

my friends 

and 

my family

are 

in Florida 

having a jolly ole time

and 

I

am

miserable.

I wasn't going to write this.

I don't like writing

and 

being negative.

I'm typically a happy person.

I find any reason to make laugh.

I love to have a good time

doing whatever.

I usually can take life as it comes.

This place

where I am 

is foreign.

I'm in a foreign country

with foreign people,

who also think

I'm foreign.

I've never felt more lost

more confused

or

have questioned 

any 

decision 

more 

in my 

life

than now.

I'm questioning myself.

Am I strong enough for this?

Is this where I am supposed to be?

Do I have what it takes to continue to be Mrs. Sergeant?

What the fuck was I thinking moving to Bahrain?

Sorry about the last one, 

but it's a question 

I have asked  myself

 every. single. day.

I feel like a clown. 

I smile to get through the day.

Not to let my children see me upset.

Depressed.

Lonely.

Desperate for something.

Anything

A friend.

Oh and before you ask

"Why aren't I making friends with other wives"?

I'll tell you.

Here in Bahrain the lines between 

Officer Wife and Enlisted Wife

are very clearly drawn and you do not

cross them. 

They don't let you.

I've tried.

So. 

Where does that leave me?

Here. 

Writing this. 

In tears 

because 

I am 

so

very 

lonely.

So VERY homesick.

I'm praying this passes.

I'm praying that I have what it takes 

to 

adapt.

To learn to love where I am 

in 

whatever moment I'm in.

Or

at least 

be content.

I am going to try and write here more.

This blog and twitter

have been my lifelines.

Really more than anyone could even begin to realize.

To you guys, 

Thank you for being a sounding board.

Thanks for listening to ridiculous rants 

such as this.

I feel better to have gotten that out.

Hopefully 

I will get better.

xoxo

Happy Mother's Day!

To All The Mom's out there!!!

Have fun celebrating all that you do!

You deserve it. 

A newborn Athlete

My Athlete trying to walk

My Artist

 A newborn Artist

My Athlete 

Playing!

 My Mommy and I

Have you ever?

Just had so much to say 

and 

decided to 

keep quiet.

I feel like that today. :-/ 

On a good note, 

I was nominated to be one 

of the 

Top 25 Military Family Blogs

However, 

that does require a little help from 

my awesome readers!

Y'all gonna help me right?

Just click on the cute circle below 

and go 

vote for me!

You can vote once a day 

until May 25th.

So, how awesome would that be to 

actually make the Top 25?

That would be EPIC. 

Okay. I'm out of rambles. 

Wordless Wednesday ~ National Pet Week

I had no idea it was National Pet Week 

until I stumbled across it on a Running from the Law 

Sara is donating a dollar to 

Humane Society 

for every comment she gets.

Last year she had 41,

this year she wants to beat that total.

Let's help her!

Go visit!

And of course I couldn't leave this post 

without a picture of my 

pet!

***excuse how I'm looking*** seriously.

Happy National Pet Week!

:-)

What we did this weekend... Middle East Edition

It's already May?!

Where has 2011 gone?

It seems like just yesterday 

I was celebrating New Years

Now it's May?!

There are a many cool things happening this month.

Military Spouse Appreciation

Mother's Day

Cinco De Mayo

and

other stuff... 

What are you doing to celebrate 

the holidays that come

with May Flowers?

Over here in this country

Today was Labour Day

I had no idea 

and 

I tried to take 

The Artist 

to school.

Um...

Yeah... notsomuch.

LOL

There was no school.

I looked like an 

idiot

an uninformed 

mother.

That shan't be happening again.

This weekend we

Bought me a car that is automatic. ;-P

Hung out by the pool

 Destroyed the box YiaYia sent us

 Found a cupcake shop walking distance from our house!

(I'm too happy about this.)lol

 Went shopping for fruits and veggies at the Souq

 Dil, our housekeeper/nanny showed the kids how to pick 

the best fruit and vegetables. Her aunt Demmi went with us

to show us which vendors were good and which ones weren't so good.

It was a great time and we all enjoyed ourselves very much.

During our next visit to the souq 

we'll venture into the meat/fish area.

Then after that the fabric souq

(I'm looking forward to this the most!)

Then the gold souq. 

Stay tuned!

 What did you do this weekend?